Nya's World

Closing Blog

2011-11-10T09:29:00.001-08:00

Hello, I will be closing this blog page. My new blog page is:

http://nyatdesign.com/wordpress/

Thanks for the support.

PETITION: Tell the GOP not to put the economy at risk just to protect tax breaks for billionaires

2011-07-20T13:11:00.000-07:00

PETITION: Tell the GOP not to put the economy at risk just to protect tax breaks for billionaires

Crude Reality - USA

2010-09-13T05:23:00.000-07:00

Get the new iPod Touch 4th Gen for free!

2010-09-11T18:05:00.000-07:00

I got mine and so can you:
http://www.YourFreeVideoiPods.com/index.php?ref=6623662

Overdose: The Next Financial Crisis

2010-08-31T10:20:00.000-07:00

A must-watch.

L - Message to the Westboro Baptist Church

2010-05-30T12:06:00.000-07:00

MAT Routes Review

2010-05-25T07:54:00.000-07:00

Okay, last time, I said that I was going give the new routes a try. I recorded what routes I took and at what times:

1. 25 notc - 8:01am.
I went to the post office there and had McDonalds for breakfast.
9:45am - back home.

2. 25 notc - 8:01am.
Post office then McDs.
9:01am - 18 crossroads from 49th Ames. The walk from there took 10 mins.

3. 18 cr from 49th ames.
5:51pm to benson park transit center.
6:09pm transfered to 14 downtown.
6:29pm went to kaikan.

4. 8:15am - 18 cr
Walk to 49th Ames.
8:55 to btc
9:19 transfered to 14 downtown going to 60th and maple.
10:04am - 8 notc from 60th and maple
10:52am - 25 notc
11:05 am - home (Bedford loop)

5. 8:05am - 25 notc
8:19am transfered to 3 south Omaha going to Mcc-soc.
*if I was going to the westroads mall, 2 westroads at midtown transit center - 8:39am.
8:56am - arrived at soc.

So, while it may take longer to get where I need to go, the new routes work for what I need to do. I'm still planning to learn how to drive, but it's good that I still have an alternative.

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Swallow my pride

2010-05-11T15:54:00.000-07:00

I've decided to swallow my pride and try out the new bus routes. I won't know unless I try, right?

Has MAT gone crazy?

2010-04-26T19:37:00.000-07:00

Okay, last you heard from me, I was very, how do we say, 'Vexed', at Metro Area Transit. Now, I'm vexed again, but somewhat controlled my anger. If your didn't know, on April 25, MAT completely changed it routes. For me, it means, if I wanted to take the bus, I would have to walk a far distance to get to the nearest bus stop. Then, it would take even longer to get to where I need to go. You think I'm lying? Well, before the change, I would take the 3 going to Midtown to 40th and Cumings. I would down to 48th and Spaulding, which is down the hill from my house, catch the 3 there and it would take about 7 to 10 minutes. Now, if I wanted to go to Cumings, I would have to go all the up to 48th & Ames, wait on the number 18 downtown to 20th & Cuming and take the 14 Westroads to 40th & Cumings, which takes 36 minutes. If you think I'm lying, here's proof:
Itineraries
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Origin: 4837 SPAULDING ST, OMAHA, 68104
Destination: N 40TH ST @ CUMING ST, OMAHA
Requested for: Arrival of 9:00a on 4/27/10
Valid for: WKD service in effect from 04-25-2010 to 07-31-2010
Sorted by: Trip Duration

* indicates that itinerary involves a stay-in-seat transfer

Select to view details
Trip Route(s) Departs Arrives Duration Transfer Walk Fare
1

18, 14 8:06a 8:43a 36 1 0.39 miles $1.30
2

18, 14 8:52a 9:29a 36 1 0.39 miles $1.30
3

18, 4 8:21a 9:00a 38 1 0.40 miles $1.30
4

18, 4 8:07a 8:59a 51 1 0.38 miles $1.30

Now, I called MAT several, asking why this change. Finally, after the fifth or sixth time, They said that it was because not many people the bus as much.

Okay, so all the times, I and others relied on the bus for school, work, shopping, etc. because we don't have cars, don't want to rely on other people, have some form of independence, that didn't count for anything. And now, I have to rely on said others because if I wanted to take the bus, it would take practically forever to get where I need to go. So, thank you MAT, for making completely dependence on a ride because, obviously, my business didn't count for much, if anything.

Dad Denies Paralyzed Mom Right To See Triplets

2010-04-23T05:43:00.000-07:00

Disgusting...

MCC Omaha Graffiti Clean Up

2010-04-08T10:00:00.001-07:00

MCC Omaha Graffiti Clean Up

April 24th, 2010

9:00am-12:00pm

Meet at the South campus ITC Building

Lunch will be provided.

Bus transportation avaliable from the Fort Campus to the site. Bus pickup will be at 8:30am and drop off at 12:30pm.

Call Kyle Van Dusen 402-457-2606 or email ktvandusen@mccneb.edu to register.

First 100 registrants get a free T-Shirt with the Logo above designed by contest winner Vince Powell.

iPad: Final Thoughts

2010-04-01T19:22:00.000-07:00

At first, I thought that the iPad would work for me. It's lightweight so it was be easy for travel and I was planning on use it for business trips and portfolios. However, I can only use one to two apps at a time. That's a problem for me because I'm a big multitasking. You can ask any of my friend and family. They can confirm this. It's not to say that the iPad is a glorified iPod Touch. It can be extremely beneficial for people who take notes without needing a pen or pencil and who need a bigger screen, those who need to look at files quickly without having to dig thru tons of paper and those who wanted to display their portfolios without having to carry heavy samples of their work. (Ex: Receptionists, Doctors, Nurses, Lawyers, Photographers, Graphic Designers, Web Developers, Moms, Dads, Building Planners, etc.) But, for me, I'll stick with my iPod Touch. I'm going to use it to display my portfolio. It's small, but, for me, it works. Also, I'm going to bring my laptop on business trips. With me, I need to multitask or I'd feel out of sync. So, for those wanting to get the iPad on April 3rd, good luck and I hope it suits all your needs.

iPad: Part 3

2010-03-14T14:32:00.000-07:00

I'm going to stick with my ipod touch and observe the ipad launch more carefully. I want to wait before buying it. So, for the moment, the ipod touch stays.

iPad: Second Look

2010-03-13T11:38:00.001-08:00

I've decided to give the iPad a try when it comes out. At first, I didn't see the need for it, but now, I want to try it out for myself to see if I'm right or wrong.

iPad: First Look

2010-02-09T15:46:00.000-08:00

When the iPad was first announced, I was curious. After learning about it more, I think that iPad is overrated. Sure, it's a bigger screen, a faster processor, Wi-Fi + 3G and all that good stuff. However, I just don't see the appeal. To me, it's just a netbook with a touch screen. Also, with the prices they for both Wi-Fi and Wi-Fi + 3G, you're better off just getting a laptop. They're cheaper and have much more to offer. I'm going to wait for the next ipod touch to have an fm tuner because that's the feature I want the most. Now, I love the iPod Touch, but it needs an fm tuner. I know that they're apps for internet radio and those are cool, but sometimes, I want to listen to my local stations.I tried the iPod Nano with the fm tuner, but it just wasn't the same. I hope that the next iPod Touch does have an fm tuner. Then, to me, it would be a perfect device. So, in conclusion, if you got the cash to burn and the iPad's appealing to you, be my guess. Everyone else, just get a laptop.

Stop protecting rapists!

2010-01-30T09:39:00.001-08:00

Tell KBR/Halliburton: Stop protecting rapists. http://bit.ly/cr9x9M Please RT

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Rock the Era

2010-01-21T18:26:00.001-08:00

This Sunday, we're having a Rock the Era meeting at the Kaikan (community center in Japanese). If you would like to come, it starts at 10am, located on Saddle Creek across the street from Family Dollar. I hope that you can join us. :D

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The visit

2010-01-15T15:16:00.001-08:00

Today, I visited Scott, Colin and Bill at Minor White Studio. That's where I did my internship before going to MCC. They were happy to see me and we got caught up. It was like I never left. It was good to see them again and I hope to see them again soon.

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New Year's Gongyo 2010

2010-01-01T12:30:00.001-08:00

I just got back from New Year's Gongyo. It was so wondeful. I'm glad that everyone had a good time. Today, I was announced as a district leader for the green territory on north easy Omaha. Afterwards, we had a potluck. I'm really glad that the day turned out good. I was worried that because of the weather, slot of people wouldn't make it. Well, Happy New Year Everyone! <3 :D <3

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Happy B-day, two days early! :D

2009-12-29T18:11:00.001-08:00

Well, my b-day's Thursday. I'm going to be 30 years old. I really don't have any plans that day. I guess I've been so busy that I haven't thought about it that much. I can't wait for classes to start up again. Hopefully, when the weather gets better, I can go to the school labs again. I've been doing my online classes at home and it's fine. However, it's sometimes feels like I have cabin fever. Well, have a happy new year, everyone! <3 :D

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I wish I was back in the 90's...

2009-12-06T12:34:00.001-08:00

I wish I was back in the 90's because, to me, everything was wonderful back then. Things made more sense, unlike now. It feels like the 90's were the Renaissance and right now is the Dark Ages. The reason why I feels this way is because today everything is so confusing and twisted, to the point where I don't know what's what anymore. Sometimes, I feel like I woke up one day on the wrong planet. We have mindless TV shows, people bitching about the President bowing to the emperor of Japan, terrorism, the economy, an endless war, the list is endless. Back in the 90's, all I had to worry about is school. Now, I got to worry about every f-ing thing in the world: identity theft, unemployment, credit scores and whatever else. Right now, I feel so frustrated with the world today. Sometimes, it feels as if we're beyond saving because it's like we're devolving into brainless savages, not caring who we hurt and what we do.

First week at school.

2009-12-04T07:05:00.001-08:00

It's Friday and I'm at school now. The first week of class was good. I had a bit of trouble at first because I'm doing online classes only this quarter. But, I'm getting the hang of it. I don't want to pat myself on the back too much because I know it'll get harder from here. But, I'll do my best. :D

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Reflections - 2009

2009-11-30T22:53:00.001-08:00

It's about 12:45am right now. I couldn't get back to sleep so I decided to do this instead. I was thinking what a year this has been. Not just for me, but everyone. This year, I graduated from Vatterott and currently in MCC, had my first internship and enshrined my Gohozon. Meanwhile, Taylor Swift had a big year, too, we loss so many famous faces including one of the greatest performers of our lifetime, Undertaker and Shawn Micheals fought in one of the greatest matches in Wrestlemania history, the final season of Battlestar Galactic, the economy, Sarah Palin's new book and New Moon currently dominating the box office. I would go of, but it would be January 1 by the time I'm done. With all that's happened, what will next year bring? Hopefully, we're wise enough to learn from the past to make a better future. Only time will tell...

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School on Monday

2009-11-28T08:08:00.001-08:00

Well, I start my new classes on Monday. I'm both excited and nervous. Excited because I'm learning web development and nervous because I don't know what to expect. This is my first time doing online courses and I want to do well in them. If I get into trouble, I can go to one of the student labs to get help. Wish me luck. : D

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Confusion - Respect or Submission

2009-11-20T13:00:00.000-08:00

Okay, so I was in the cab going to my doctor's office when Sean Hannity was on, saying, I think, because President Obama bowed to the Emperor of Japan that he was showing that Americas as now bowing to Japan, or something. I don't know. I got confused by that statement, saying to the cab driver, why is that bad? President Obama, to me, was just showing the emperor respect by bowing to him, like anybody would me him, or whatever custom used when addressing anyone from a different country. But, and this is the crazy, the cabdriver got mad at me for saying that. He also said that what Obama did was show the rest of the world that US was weak and that Queen of England would never bow to a commoner. Then, I didn't say anything because I was just so confused. When did bowing to an emperor in their country or being respectful to others when visiting their country suddenly show that you and the US is weak? Am I going crazy? Somebody please explain this to me because I just don't get it.

Experience - My first year as a Nichiren Buddhist

2009-11-17T19:05:00.001-08:00

It's been a year since I become a Nichiren Buddhist. It's kinda weird how I become one. One night, I was on iTunes searching for Buddhist podcasts where I found, ironically, A Buddhist Podcast. The first episode I listened to was the Study Special with Jason Jarrett, the host, and William Woolard, the author of "The Reluctant Buddhist". They were going over study material for the Buddhist Learning Review that year. I listened for a few minutes before going to bed. Later that night, at around 1AM, my niece got in trouble for stealing our Grandma's car. The house was in an uproar. The next morning, everyone was still upset and so I decided to go to the Benson Grind on 60th and Maple. I had the podcast on my mp3 player and listened to it while I was there. The more I listened, the more it made sense. So, I began to research more on my own. I was suprised to discover that there was an SGI here in Omaha. I wanted to go, but I didn't know how to drive and took the bus. Well, Alex, Claude and Mayumi came to pick me up and I attened my first SGI meeting. I was unsure about everything, thinking what I had gotten myself into this time. But, throughout the meeting, it made more sense. So, I started going to more meetings and meeting many wonderful people. In May 2009, I became a member of the SGI and in August 2009, I had my Gohonzon enshrined. I feel grateful for finding Nichiren Buddhist or it finding me and I know that I'm much happier now that I was a year ago.

Textbooks

2009-11-16T11:35:00.001-08:00

Today, I went to MCC-SOC to get my textbooks for my online courses. The best thing is I can go to the labs anytime to do schoolwork, which is a big thing for me since I can't afford the software at the moment. My classes start on the 30th and I'm going to take advantage of MAT's Pass To Class Bus Card since I'm going to be coming here everyday anyway. I've decided to go to the SOC to study because more buses run through there.

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Final Week and Reflections...

2009-11-13T04:16:00.000-08:00

Well, yesterday was my final week at my internship. I was a bit sad because I'm going to miss everyone there. But, I'm grateful for the opportunity to intern for them because they taught me so much about photography and, sometimes, about life. I felt that I grew a bit more due to my time there. And now, I focus on starting a new journey: going back to MCC to study Web Development.

Week 11, Bankruptcy Hearing and Final Week

2009-11-05T13:25:00.000-08:00

This week, I had new hours, which started on Tuesday. I did some photo scanning and went on a photo shoot. Today, I had my bankruptcy hearing and it went well. I'm a bit sad because next week's my final week at my Internship. But, I'm going to made it the best week possible.

CWL - 11/01/09

2009-11-01T16:19:00.001-08:00

http://shop.ebay.com/robertdaske/m.html?_nkw=&_armrs=1&_from=&_ipg=&_trksid=p3686

Also, I noticed that one day after a listing, they have no items.

Curiouser and curiouser...

Consumer Warning Listings - 10/31/09

2009-10-31T11:27:00.002-07:00

Okay, so after this week, I decided to do a consumer warning listings blog. Each week, I will make a listing of those suspicious of fraudulent behavior. Anyone who knows the people I listed and can back them up, please tell me to that I may issue an apology an put them on a trusted sellers list.

Ebay - 10/29/09 to 10/31/09

http://shop.ebay.com/chadwikantil/m.html?_nkw=&_armrs=1&_from=&_ipg=&_trksid=p3686
http://shop.ebay.com/almonbenson/m.html?_nkw=&_armrs=1&_from=&_ipg=&_trksid=p3686
http://shop.ebay.com/travisner/m.html?_nkw=&_armrs=1&_from=&_ipg=&_trksid=p3686
http://shop.ebay.com/almonbenson/m.html?_nkw=&_armrs=1&_from=&_ipg=&_trksid=p3686
http://shop.ebay.com/kylielove0/m.html?_nkw=&_armrs=1&_from=&_ipg=&_trksid=p3686

Same old tricks...

2009-10-31T11:27:00.001-07:00

Don't you guys have anything else better to do than ripping folks off?

http://shop.ebay.com/kylielove0/m.html?_nkw=&_armrs=1&_from=&_ipg=&_trksid=p3686

Also, so that I don't seem like I'm being a vigilante, if anyone happens to know the sellers I've listing so far, please let me know if they're on the up and up or not. If so, then I'm make a formal apology and say that they're trusted buyers. If not, then they're still on the list because they people have no right to do this to people and should be ashamed of themselves.

Week 10

2009-10-30T16:54:00.000-07:00

Well, this week I did my second photo shoot and scanned photos to be cleaned later. Next week's my Bankruptcy hearing, so wish me luck.

They're at it again.

2009-10-30T16:53:00.001-07:00

Some people just won't learn:

http://shop.ebay.com/almonbenson/m.html?_nkw=&_armrs=1&_from=&_ipg=&_trksid=p3686

You know what, find someone else to con because I'm now on to you scam and will continue to tell folks until you're stopped.

CONSUMER WARNING

2009-10-29T11:57:00.000-07:00

THIS IS A CONSUMER WARNING - PLEASE READ: For those playing to buy the lastest Apple iPods from eBay, don't! There have been "sellers" trying to sell them at low prices, but their items have been removed from eBay because the items listed on ebay but then completed outside, which according to them are extremely risky because they are not covered by ebay buyer protection programs and are highly susceptible to fraud. I should know because I bought one this morning and ebay contacted about this. The seller is joshingramer. If you should happen to have bought anything from this person, please ebay. If, like me, you have already bought an item using paypal, contact paypal and file a dispute. Now, what to look out for: the newest ipods sold at 30-40 units, all at the same low price, depending on what model you're buying. For example, ipod touch 32gb 3rd gens were being sold at 245 with 32 units available, which is what i bought. I'm sorry that this is lenghty, but I just don't want you guys to get ripped-off like I did. And if you're still not convinced, look at these:

http://shop.ebay.com/chadwikantil/m.html?_nkw=&_armrs=1&_from=&_ipg=&_trksid=p3686
http://shop.ebay.com/almonbenson/m.html?_nkw=&_armrs=1&_from=&_ipg=&_trksid=p3686
http://shop.ebay.com/travisner/m.html?_nkw=&_armrs=1&_from=&_ipg=&_trksid=p3686

One final note: whoever's doing this, I'm on to your little scam and you should be ashamed of yourselves. Also, you messed with the wrong person.

Week 9 and Graduation

2009-10-24T12:10:00.000-07:00

Well, this week I went to work only on Monday and Tuesday because on Wednesday, I needed a day off. My body felt like it was on auto-pilot. Today was my Graduation Ceremony. There's photos on my website right now.

Week 8 (Weird Week)

2009-10-14T18:15:00.000-07:00

Okay, this week, I only went Monday and Tuesday. I would have done today, but I had to got to my bank to fix my checking account. On Saturday Night, I noticed that I had some ATM withdraws. Now, here's the kicker: I had my card the whole time, but the charges were made in Penang, Malaysia. WTF? So, I had to close my card and my the charges will be reversed. Another thing is that I'm really think of leaving Cricket. Lately, they've been dropping the ball in more ways than one. I don't know, because I'm hoping that things can change.

Marge Simpson makes cover of Playboy | Oddly Enough | Reuters

2009-10-13T10:29:00.001-07:00

Huh?!

Marge Simpson makes cover of Playboy | Oddly Enough | Reuters

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Star Wars and Star Trek Baby Costumes

2009-10-10T17:10:00.001-07:00

Star Wars and Star Trek Baby Costumes

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YouTube - The World According to Monsanto || DVD Quality || Part 1 of 10 ||

2009-10-09T10:39:00.001-07:00

YouTube - The World According to Monsanto || DVD Quality || Part 1 of 10 ||

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YouTube - Makael's Rants About BET & Debra Lee & Michael Jackson's Media Coverage

2009-10-09T10:31:00.001-07:00

YouTube - Makael's Rants About BET & Debra Lee & Michael Jackson's Media Coverage

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Brooke Astor's son, lawyer guilty of bilking estate - CNN.com

2009-10-08T18:54:00.001-07:00

This is absolutely sickening.

Brooke Astor's son, lawyer guilty of bilking estate - CNN.com

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Week 7 and MCC

2009-10-08T10:19:00.000-07:00

This week, I only worked on Tuesday because I was sick on Monday and on Wednesday I went to MCC to registar for Winter semester. I'm going to be taking Web Development.

Fear Clinic ? Director's Trailer

2009-10-08T10:11:00.001-07:00

Fear Clinic ? Director's Trailer

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Boycott Wal-Mart: Why you should wipe that smiling yellow face off your shopping list.: News: Feature

2009-10-06T14:12:00.001-07:00

Boycott Wal-Mart: Why you should wipe that smiling yellow face off your shopping list.: News: Feature

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Week 6 and Big News

2009-09-30T17:12:00.000-07:00

Well, this week was a bit slow. I think because Bill is in North Dakota this week for a shoot. He may be back next week. But, great news, today I made my final payment to my lawyer and I'm going to get my bankurptcy processed. The important thing is to NEVER make the same mistake again. :)

Weeks 4 & 5

2009-09-24T16:57:00.000-07:00

Last week, I went to my internship only on Monday because I was experiencing burnout. This week, I finished to the photos in LightRoom and helped set up a shoot in the studio. Today, our family friend, Toni, took me on her Bomb-Pop route in Elkhorn. I never been to Elkhorn before. All I knew on it was that Metro Community College was there and it's my former C.A. Instructor Mike's home. It's a very beautiful city with farmland. The only time I ever saw farmland was when I was going out of town. I learned alot while with Toni. The route was much like my first photo shoot; there's alot more work done behind the scenes.

The Mistakes List

2009-09-18T05:55:00.000-07:00

This morning while chanting, I started to write down a list of mistakes I've made in the hopes that I finally learn from them and grow as a people. Anyone can make a list of their own if they want. Here's mine:

Mistake I've made and must NEVER repeat:
1. Getting credit.
2. Overspending.
3. Buying things that I won't use as much and selling them two weeks later.
4. Giving money, even though I need it.
5. Eating other people's food. (At home. :P)
6. Not knowing where to put stuiff and not asking.
7. Talking first, thinking later.
8. Not saving money.
9. Not listening.
10. Comparing myself to others.
11. Not following my instincts.
12. Perfectionism.
13. Warped ideas of what should be according to everyone else.
14. Being taken advantage of.
15. Not taking care of me.
16. Always caring what others think.
17. Always making assumptions.
18. Going to and relying on check cashing places.
19. Going to and relying on loans and credit cards.
20 Getting what I WANT instead of what I NEED.
21. Not being grateful for what I already got.
And Finally...
NOT LEARNING FROM MY MISTAKES!!!!

Well, that's my list. What do you think? :)

A Stranger in an Unfamilar World...

2009-09-17T06:42:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I feel as if I don't know know this world anymore. All my life, I always did the right thing, only to discover that it hadn't meant anything. And it's not just me. Everyday, I'm surrounded by stories of murder, rape, war, terrorism, racism, sexism, the economy, etc. To me, it feels as if I'm an alien in this weird world. Did the people in Nichiren Daishonin's time feel like this, that they're in a hell with no end? This can't be how the world really is, because, to me, it doesn't make sense.

Internship - Week 3

2009-09-09T15:24:00.000-07:00

This was a tiring but big week for me. On Tuesday, I did some more photo cleanup in Lightroom and met Pat, the owner of Stonehouse Publishing. Today, I helped set up a photo shoot and believe me, photographers and BTS guys deserve more credit than their getting. Their so many things to do to make a shoot perfect. I didn't realize how much until now.

Internship - Week 2

2009-09-04T06:21:00.000-07:00

This week, I learned about how to clean up photos with LightRoom and Photoshop. At first, I had a bit of trouble, but with a little help, I got the hang of it in no time. I think I'll still be doing more cleaning up. Afterwards, I may scan and clean more photos unless something changes. I'm learning so much that it feels like my brain's on fire. :D

My First Week

2009-08-26T03:54:00.001-07:00

Well, this week I started my internship. On Monday, I scanned pictures onto the computer for editing. But, this wasn't your average scanner. It was designed to scanned picture taken from a traditional camera and cost as much as a car. Yesterday, I learned a little bit about LightRoom while putting tags on the photos I scanned. Today, I'm going to learn how to clean up the photos in LightRoom. Before I started, I was nervous because I didn't know exactly what to expect. But, after a while, I began to feel more at ease. Well, I got to get ready to go soon.

I got an internship :D

2009-08-21T11:41:00.000-07:00

I got an internship today! I still can't believe. I'm a little nervous, but I'll be okay.

I'm Back!

2009-08-20T11:21:00.000-07:00

Hi, I'm back! Sorry that I've been gone for so long. I've been so busy with school, SGI and trying to find a job.

Realization: I'm Okay

2009-05-23T15:02:00.001-07:00

It takes a really good friend to tell you that you're okay being you. It felt weird when Debbie told me that today while driving me home from a district meeting. The trick is keeping that in mind, even during the times when I doubt myself. I'm glad and grateful that Debbie told me that. :D

A Vow to Myself

2009-05-12T16:25:00.000-07:00

Today, I made an important vow to myself: I vow to challenge what it is to be 'normal'; in my enviroment, in society, etc. All my life, I felt that I had to be 'normal' to be happy. But, what exactly is 'normal' and if I become it, will I be any happier? Will everyone I know and don't know be happier? What if I'm not happy being 'normal', according to popular opinion? That's what I want to challenge and win at. :D

My first meeting with my family

2009-04-24T08:45:00.000-07:00

Last night, my sister and my niece came with me to Gosho Study. I was nervous because I didn't know how they would take everything. I explained to them the organization, gongyo and daimoku along with the help of my fellow SGI members. They, we had our Gosho study. I was surprised and amazed that my sister picked up on everything so quickly. I'm happy that my family was there. :D

Happy :D

2009-04-19T16:20:00.000-07:00

I'm happy that this weekend was good and not what I thought it would be. I met my nephew Kameron and he exactly like my niece, Alexis. :D They are like tow peas in a pod. They send yesterday and today together. I saw Karemon again today and gave him a copy of "The New Human Revolution: Volume 1" and my contact info. I hope that he likes it and contacts me soon. :D

Realization: Foolishness

2009-03-29T16:45:00.001-07:00

Foolishness comes in everyone's life, but the kind of foolishness that you always remember is the kind you least suspect. With me, my foolishness was my money, especially during these past few years. I've always been careful with it, saving it and such. But, then, my family problems started to grow and I felt I had to help, or people would see me as selfish. So, I gave up my savings and took out loans to help, thinking that it would be enough, but it wasn't. Everyone was stress, me more so, because I tried to help as best I could, but it wasn't enough. Instead of finding a healthy way to cope, I went to credit cards to deal. I felt that I had something to control in that situation. Then, I got into debt. I went to Credit Advisors for help and got out of debt. However, it didn't late long because my family needed help and my mom was in the hospital, so I had to take out credit cards and loans to help once again, but I ended up worse off than before. At times, I felt like screaming at my family and blaming them for getting me in this situation, not once, but twice. But, then, I stopped myself, realizing that I got myself in this and I had to deal with the results of my actions.

My advice is this: if you're stress out over whatever, find a healthier way to deal than going for the quick fix:

1. Talk to a therapist.
2. Talk to good friends.
3. Play with your pets.
4. Play with your kids.
5. Clean, clean, clean. :D
6. Exercise.
7. Listen to music.
8. Meditate.
9. Read.
10. Write in a journal.
11. Write poetry.
12. Write a story.
13. Sketch.

Whatever else you can think of that's healthy, do it.

Realization: Graditude

2009-03-29T12:29:00.001-07:00

I, like everyone, I think forgets to be grateful for what they already have and lament on want we don't have. This could be anything. It reminds me of President Toda said in The Human Revolution, Book 2: People suffers because they see their neighbors with new and expensive things and feel that they should have those things, too but don't have the means to do so. He also said that science should bring people together and benefit mankind towards the greater good, not divide us. When I read what he said, I thought, "Hey, That's Me! I'm trying to keep up with everyone around instead of being grateful for what I already got!" It's very easy to forget to be grateful.

Realization: Perfection

2009-03-29T06:08:00.001-07:00

To me, I feel like everywhere I turn, people except me to be perfect. Perfect body, perfect genetics, perfect credit, perfect job, perfect house, etc. But, what is perfect and what's the real price of it? I tried to be perfect because I thought that's what people expected of me. But, I didn't feel perfect; I felt pressured to keep up the facade out of fear of rejection or ridicule and it ended up hurting me in the end. Also, I think of others who resort to crime, terrorism, etc.; they hurt others because they are hurting. They feel that they're imperfect and those who are perfect need to suffer or they feel that they are perfect and those who are imperfect must submit to their will or suffer. I don't want to be perfect anymore. All I want is for people to love and accept me for all that I am, faults and all. When I pass on, I don't want to be asked, were you perfect in your life? I want to be asked, did you live a good life despite your imperfections?

Realization: Family

2009-03-28T11:57:00.000-07:00

Today, I had to ride with my sister when she was going to pick up my aunt and her daughter. She, well, she hates their guts with a passion. It is because they've been disrespectful to her and her daughter, stealing their stuff and just messing with their lives. I could tell that it told every once of self restraint my sister had not to kill them. I guess that's why I had to go with her. Afterwards, it got me thinking, if these people hate each other, always plot for the others unhappiness, why are we even a family in the first place? It doesn't make sense. What also makes no sense is bringing a child in the world when you're not all together. My mom has always had an issue with weight. That started to spill over to my sister when mom started to put her in weight loss programs. Then, it spilled over to me, but I didn't realize it until later. When I was ten, I thought that my sister ate a candy bar of mine and I called her 'fat' in front of her friend on the phone. Well, she told mom and mom slapped me in the face, angry that I said that. She didn't apologize until a few days later. I didn't understand why what I said hurt, until what Lisa told me in the car today. Nobody explained to me back then how hurtful that word was or how much my mom and my sister struggle with it. Mom just slap me, yelled at me and apologized with no explanation as to why she did it. Well, years later, mom and I had a big blow-out and I brought it up. She said that my aunt would do the same thing. But, I kept telling her that I wasn't my aunt and that I was me. But, she didn't listen. Today, mom lost weight from gastric bypass, but she has complications. My sister is angry with our mom because she's always sick. Right now, I feel sad because I don't understand why my family members spent so much time and effort hurting each other or why we're even together in the first place. Also, I don't want to be thin. I thought I did because I thought that what everyone expected of me. Then, I saw my mom. Not only is she still having complications, she's not the same person I thought that I knew. She's moody, angry and mad at everything. I don't want that. I don't want to be something I'll never be because the world wants me to. Also, I don't want to be like my mom: suffering right now because her weight obsession was much more important than the love of her family and the love of those who care about.

Realization: Inner Strength

2009-02-28T14:12:00.000-08:00

Today, after doing Gongyo, I talked to my invisible Gohonzon, apologizing for feeling sad about losing my dad and everything that's happened last year. Then, I realized that the reason why all these things happened to me is because the Mystic Law felt that I was strong enough to handle all of this. Otherwise, none of this would be happening or I would have fallen to pieces years ago. Does this sound strange?

Fear: Can I truly do it on my own?

2009-02-14T09:26:00.000-08:00

Recently, I've been thinking, with everything going on in the economy today, can I truly do it on my own? Before credit, when people wanted something, they've save and save until they have just what they need. Today, it feels like I'm surrounded by everyone telling my the woes of bad credit, the benefits of good credit, etc. I had good credit once. Hell, I had excellent credit, until I ruined it myself, trying to help or otherwise. Now, I'm scared that I can't do it on my own, that my credit score be the only thing people see and not who I am as a person. It makes me feel sad, isolated and worthless. :...(

where to take responsibility

2009-02-13T05:32:00.000-08:00

How does one know where to take responsibility and where not do? Lately, I've been apologizing for almost everything that's been going on: climate change, the economy, etc. I feel as if everything's my fault because I should have seen this coming, I should have been smarter, I should have tried harder, the list just goes on. People tell me it's not my fault and not to worry about it, but others remind me of what's happening and I feel guilty again. Are my feelings justified or am I just being a worry wart again?

Meet the Pros: Day 2

2009-02-10T15:52:00.000-08:00

Well, today was the final day of Meet the Pros 2009. I had my portfolio reviewed, which was good because it'll help me focus on what I need to work on. We also had panel discussions and door prizes, in which I won a notebook and a coffee mug with two Sonic's coupons. I'm glad that I went and can't wait for next year. :D

Meet the Pros: Day 1

2009-02-09T15:05:00.000-08:00

Today, I went to Meet the Pros at the Mid-America Center in Council Bluffs. We have speakers and workshops there, along with breakfast and lunch. The workshops I went to were the virtual tours for 36 Point, Swanson-Russell and dd/a; I also went to Cover Letter & Resume, the Art of Diplomacy and the beauty of internships, or something. Tomorrow, I will be running the gauntlet because my portfolio will be reviewed. I will be looking for what's good and what needs work, so stay tuned to this channel for further updates. :)

Happy News: The Plumber :D

2009-02-06T13:05:00.001-08:00

Well, Debbie called me today and said that the plumbing's been fixed and it only cost $99! I would like to thank Amy Marie Meek, Southside Plumbing and those would helped. :D

My First Realization - Part 2: The Lower Worlds

2009-02-05T16:36:00.000-08:00

Today, unfortunately, I entered the lower worlds of the Buddha:

Hell - Feeling helpless about my family situation.

Hungry - Feeling always hungry: for food, respect, love, financial security, etc.

Animality - Feeling posessive over my posessions.

Anger - Feeling that my family sees me as nothing more than a servant and/or ATM machine, feeling that they'll completely unable to do anything for themselves without me there to 'save them' and feeling tired of always being the 'family savior'; always saving my family but no one saving me.

I realized this as I was chanting Daimoku. I'm chanting for my family's happiness, but I haven't a clue where to start. What should I do? :(

My First Realization, I Think

2009-02-04T14:59:00.000-08:00

Today, while I was doing Daimoku, I discovered that the Gohozon, like the image of the prophet Mohammad, is sacred and that's why there's little to no images of them. Also, like the Muslim faith, Daishonin Buddhiism has many preconceived misconceptions about the true nature of the practice. Sadly, it's fueled by old stereotypes and the misguided act of a few, which only ended up hurting the whole. I concluded that it's up to all of us who practice our faith the right way to take the first steps in showing the world that we're more than a preconceived misconception while showing kindness, dignity and respect to others who practice different faiths at the same time.

:D

Happy News! :D

2009-01-18T14:39:00.000-08:00

First of all, congrads are in order for Kazuko-San, an SGI member in Omaha, for the birth of her second grandson! :D His name is Dillon, but Kazuko-San calls him 'D-Chan'. :D Also, Berta, another SGI member in Omaha, came back from her hometown in Spain! :D I saw her at the distinct meeting today and talked about how our hair's changed and how her trip was.

Daimoku and the uneasy mind

2009-01-06T03:13:00.000-08:00

This morning, I woke up at around 3:10PM because I had so much on my mind. So, I got up and chanted Daimoku for an hour, then I did Gongyo and read the daily encouragement. I feel a little better. Has that ever happened to any of you?

My first New Year's Gosho.

2009-01-01T11:31:00.000-08:00

Well, today was my first New Year's Gosho and it was really fun! We did Gongyo, Maiyumi and Kati read the New Year's Gosho, Ebony read tow poems while Katie share her experience practice. Tobey, Sharon, Neil, Claude and I ream a poem while singing 'Higher Than The Sky.' Claude, Katie, Alex, Ebony, Sharon and Erika did a dance to 'Smooth Sailing' I believe the song was. Jennifer gave encouragement, we had gohonzon conferrals and leadership appointments. We saw a DVD of Ikeda-Sensei visited China and reuniting with a friend (I forgot his name. :P) We did a group picture to give to Ikeda-Sensei and we had a potluck. It was a great time and a great success. :D Also today, I bought "For Today & Tomorrow Daily Encouragement" and "The Buddha in the Mirror" by Ikeda-Sensei and some candles. Also, Marie from the store got me a Daimoku Chant, yay! :D Also, Haruko-San gave everyone Potato Soup to take home. :D

Moments & Lifetimes

2008-12-19T20:16:00.000-08:00

Tonight, I went to Maiyumi's Graduation party at Nina's house. It was so much fun. Everyone met Maiyumi's family who flew in from Japan. The family dog, Sheba, was there, but she was good, mainly plotting how to get some food. :D I met other SGI members, including a little boy named Skylar, who loves to tease his older sister by playing with her hair. We did Gongyo with Maiyumi's father leading us and Maiyumi opened her present that everyone gave her. I gave her a card with a Tiger's Eye cat shaped necklace inside. It was such a wonderful party that I was sad to leave. It made me forget about my current problems for a while. I think that's the real reason for a party: to bring people together to celebrate and forget one's troubles for a bit. And I think that people don't want a party to end is because it has moments that you wish would last forever.

Short Story: A Wish on the Last Full Moon

2008-12-13T20:04:00.000-08:00

*This short story was inspired my my G.A.D. Instructor, Tim McDonald, and granddaughter, Maggie and her dog Rena.*

*This short story was inspired my my G.A.D. Instructor, Tim McDonald, and granddaughter, Maggie and her dog Rena.*

“A Wish on the Last Full Moon”

A little girl named Maggie is with her grandfather, Tim, looking at the night sky on their ranch in Montana. The sky is so clear, especially in the country side. The stars shined like an infinite sea of diamonds as Maggie tries to count every one.

“Grandpa, there’s so many!” Maggie exclaims.

“Well, the universe is a big place. You can count the stars every night, you can’t count them all.” Tim explained.

“Where did the stars come from?” Maggie asked her dog and faithful companion, Rena, came up to them.

“Well, some say that it’s the angels while others say it’s the big bang theory, no one really knows.”

“Wow, the moon is so pretty!” Maggie said in awe.

“That’s a special moon; it’s the last full moon of the year.”

“The last full moon of the year?”

“Yes. They say if you make a wish on the last full moon of the year, your wish will come true.”

“Did you make a wish, grandpa?”

“Yes. Years ago.”

“Did it come true?”

“Yes, but not right away. Sometimes, the wish will come true right away or take a little while.”

“What was your wish?”

“Ah, I can’t tell you. If you tell your wish, it won’t come true.”

“Maggie, Dad, dinner!” Maggie’s mother called

“We better go in and eat.” Time said as he and Maggie walked to the house, hand in hand with Rena not too far behind.

It was Maggie’s bedtime. She was in her bed with Rena next to her on the floor. She woke up and began to look up at the full moon, thinking about what her grandpa said. Still looking at the moon, she made a wish and then she heard an odd sound coming from outside. She and Rena tiptoed downstairs and went outside to the sound

Suddenly, Maggie saw an owl, but no ordinary owl. It was all white with a golden vest and sparkling violet-red eyes and it was big, bigger than Maggie and Rena combined. Maggie, unafraid, walked up and petted the owl, who lowered its head. Without know it, Maggie had climbed on the owl’s back and so had Rena. Then, the owl with Maggie and Rena in tow, flew up into the sky and reached outer space.

Maggie couldn’t believe her eyes. Before her was a myriad of stars and planets as far as the eye can see. Her grandpa was right; she could count every night, but not count every one. The stars were so close that it felt as if she could almost touch them. Maggie continued to look as the feeling of sleep caused her to lay down on the owl’s soft back and drift into the realm of dreams.

It was morning as Maggie began to wake up with Rena coming up on the bed and giving Maggie good morning kisses. She was wiping the sleep out of her eyes when she noticed a white and gold owl’s feature next to her pillow. Maggie smiled and hugged Rena as she looked at the feather, happy that her wished came true: to fly with her best friends and her spirit guide to the stars.

The End

Little Feet & Spirit Fingers

2008-12-08T11:20:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was my first Sunday meeting at the SGI in Omaha. There was a lot of people, including some of the member's kids who ran around, sat with there parents or played in the playroom. We watch President Ikeda speaking to a group of students on video. The person who announced was a tad bit too excited, even President Ikeda told him to calm down. :) The announcer kind of reminds me of a sports announcer. Also, Katie explained to me the difference between jazzhands and spirit fingers. Jazzhands are like a frantic wave while spirit fingers are like typing on an invisible keyboard.

Barefeet and Jazzhands

2008-12-06T13:43:00.000-08:00

Last night, the youth division of SGI Omaha met to discuss ideas for the new year's celebration. Some are doing a tree containing the leaves of our SGI members while others are doing a dance. Towards the end, I went to have a sneak peek of rehearses. I won't spoil anything, but everyone was barefooted and their routine will include jazzhands. I think this will be a great new year's celebration.

Cousin Rufus

2008-12-02T12:22:00.001-08:00

This may be a little strange, but sometimes whenever I hear kosen-rufu, or world peace, I would think that someone is saying, "Cousin Rufus". The first few times I heard it, I was like, "Who's Cousin Rufus?" Has that ever happened to any of you guys.

Tounge Twisters and the Invisible Gohonzon

2008-11-30T09:22:00.000-08:00

I know don't anyone who first started Nichiren experienced this, but I'm have problems doing the Recitation of the Sutra. I tried to mimic the way it's said at meeting, but it's not exactly there. I would start strong and then slow down. Also, I was try really hard to pronounce every word correctly, but I would be my tounge tied. :P Has that ever happened to anyone or is it just me? Also, when chanting & reciting, I would use an empty wall for my Gohonzon.

Worries :O

2008-11-27T14:37:00.000-08:00

*Hi! Sorry I've been long so long! :P*

I'm worries about a couple of things:

1. I worry that I don't chant enough during my day. I chant when I get up, while waiting for school to open, before bed, etc. But, sometimes I forget to chant.

2. I worry that I'm not doing enough to be the change in my life and for the world.

Is this normal?

Buddhism and Family

2008-11-17T04:55:00.000-08:00

I have a bit of a dilemma: I don't know how to tell my family that I'm practicing Daishonin Buddhism. You got to understand about my family, they're set in their ways (my way or the highway). I'm afraid that if I tell them, they may think that I'm going to Hell. For me, the problem is that before Buddhism, I felt that I was going to Hell. Every day, I would reflect on all the wrong I did in my life, trying to be whatever it is I was supposed to be and praying to God every night, but, it brought me no happiness; it only made me feel inferior, sad and alone. Whenever I would argue with my family about whatever, I felt that I may have failed God. One time, one argument was so bad that I woke up with a really bad panic attack at around Midnight. So, how do I tell them?

Indigo and Potatoes (or Potatos?! :P)

2008-11-16T14:27:00.000-08:00

Today, Maiyumi and I drove to Debbie's house for the monthly SGI District meeting. There were many nice, funny people there. This month, we discussed how like when something's dipped in indigo, it deepens the color, I think, much like the Daishonin Buddhism, when we pray, study and tell others, we deepen our faith, I think. lol :D Also, it'll be this Tuesday the 78th Anniversary of the formation of the SGI. After the meeting, there was some confusion on maybe having future meetings start later or earlier and Debbie said that we're all like potatoes, being plucked from the ground and put into the pot of water (The World?). In the pot, while we're trying to get clean, we're pushing and trying to make room. I think we may have reached a compromise because all I could think about was indigo and potatoes. It was a very good meeting. :)

My Mini Me :D

2008-11-16T06:05:00.000-08:00

Last week, I was given very good advice. I was trying to piece together how certain events in my life got me to where I am today and how to deal with it. Well, the advice I was given was to practice self-talk. So, I envisioned my five-year-old self: I have pigtails, wear overalls andwant everything in the world. My mini me would hop up and down asking, wanting or worrying about whatever and I would tell my mini me to relax, everything's fine and be reasonable with her. And she would smile and say, "Okay." What about you, do you have a mini me?

Paralells: The Buddha Geoff and Me

2008-11-14T09:24:00.000-08:00

*I removed the previous post because it revealed too much, so here's a revision. :P*

After listening to "The Buddha, Geoff and Me." a novel by Eddy Canfor-Dumas @ abuddhistpodcast.com, I discovered that Eddy's like me and Geoff's like many important people in my life. Also, like Eddy, we both have hardships, which I believe that everyone can relate to. I believe it takes a suddenly, positive force to steer those in the right direction. So, if you've got time, listen to "The Buddha, Geoff and Me." a novel by Eddy Canfor-Dumas @ abuddhistpodcast.com. :)

Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo

2008-11-14T03:53:00.000-08:00

Last night before I went to bed, I was still thinking about Lisa and what happened. Of course, she was still upset, rightfully so, so I told her to chant Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo whenever she feels angry, sad or anxious. I told her I do it and it makes me feel lighter. I hope she can do this, too, but in her own time. Then I thought to myself, yes we're problems right now, but deep down, we truly care about each other and hurt when the other's hurting. What do you think?

My first relaspe as a Buddhist

2008-11-13T14:04:00.000-08:00

Well, today, my sister was trying to get home by bus, but an insensitive bus driver wouldn't let her because:

1. Her transfer expired, so she had to wait.

2. The black line of her bus ticket was scratched, so she couldn't get on.

So, I was pissed. Yes, I having difficulties with her, but she's still my blood and I don't want bad things to happen to her. The next thing I did was call MAT and used very colorful language to express my frustration. Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo didn't come into my mind, just that my sister was did wrong and the people who did it(MAT) deserved to be cussed out. Have you guys ever had a relapse and if so, how did you deal with it?

My First SGI Meeting

2008-11-09T11:47:00.001-08:00

Today, I attended my first SGI meeting at the Omaha Community Center. Alex, one of the members, picked me up, along with Maiyumi (I think that's what her name is. I not good with names. :P) and Claude. At the beginning of the meeting, when did the Nam-Myoko-Renge-Kyo chant for 30 minutes. Then, the girls were talking about chapter 5 of President Ikeda's wife's book. (President Ideka is the head of SGI worldwide.) Then, we talked about what is happiness and what is unhappiness. My first meeting was really nice and the people are really friendly and funny. :)

The Buddha, Geoff and Me

2008-11-07T13:23:00.000-08:00

I just finished listening to "The Buddha, Geoff and Me" through abuddhistpodcast.com. It's a beautiful story about Eddy, who lost his job and girlfriend, who meets Geoff, who teaches Eddy about Buddhism. Towards the end, I won't spoil it, but I began to become sad because this story parallels my own, even the characters of Geoff, who reminds me of my late dad and Eddy, who reminds me of me. If anyone has a free moment, check out, "The Buddha, Geoff and Me" @ abuddhistpost.com

Sorry :P

2008-11-05T18:45:00.000-08:00

Sorry for being gone awhile. I've started Phase 3 which is Illustrator with a new instructor, I've started to study the teachings of Japanese Buddhist Nichiren Daishonin (http://www.guidestud.org/, http://abuddhistpodcast.com/) and of course the election. Maybe I'll talk more when things calm down. :)

What I don't like >:P

2008-10-28T04:54:00.000-07:00

I don't like judgemental, criticial people who force everyone around them to change. For example, in Alabama, there's a "Fat Tax", simply put, you don't lose weight, you pay more taxes. I understand the need for it to combat the ever-growing obestiy problem in this country, but here are the problem I have with it:

Forced conformity.
If people are unable to lose weight, they will feel ostrictzied for being unable to comply with the new law.
The after affects when people lose weight. They'll view those who are overweight as subhuman, forgetting that they we're overweight themselves.

What Alabama needs to do is gather the citizens together and come up with alternative solutions that can help its people and not make overweight citizens feel like outcasts in their own communities.

Bad Day :(

2008-10-27T16:06:00.000-07:00

Today was awful and I didn't plan on it being awful. It felt as if everyone's on my case; some for my benefit and others because they can't look past my mistakes. I feel that I can't make mistakes, that I have to be perfect. I always felt this way since I was little because I feared displeasing people. Well, I did everything that people ask and they're still displeased with me.

WoB - beyond facebook.

2008-10-23T19:46:00.000-07:00

Hey, I'm okay now. I settled what I needed to do. I've been thinking, I would like to see the World of Blood games, what I used to play on Facebook, be made into video games. They're fun, addictive and have compelling story lines.

Afraid

2008-10-22T03:02:00.000-07:00

I'm afraid to file for bankruptcy because it'll be another mistake that people will point out and it'll come back to haunt. All my life, I felt I had to be perfect because whenever I would make a mistake, people would make me feel ashamed by bringing up past mistakes or comparing me to others, making me feel inferior.

The Right Decision (?)

2008-10-20T16:33:00.000-07:00

Am I making the right decision filing bankruptcy? I feel as if its another bad decision that'll return to haunt me someday. I feel like such a failure; I messed on day one when I agreed to get a credit card. I didn't want to because I knew that this would happen and I was right. I feel so stupid; as if I'm never smart enough to make decisions where it counts. I feel like I don't have one inkling of independent thought because if I did, everything would be different. :...(

How did I get here?

2008-10-19T04:35:00.000-07:00

I keep thinking to myself, how did I come to this point: filing bankruptcy. Then, I think back to 2003 when I got my first Capital One Visa credit card. I didn't want to, but my mom thought that it would be a good idea. Instead, it became the catalyst for misery and heartbreak. And I keep thinking, if I didn't listen to my mom and get that card, everything would be extremely different. But, I blame myself because I didn't listen to my own instincts instead of listening to everyone else. Follow your instincts; if something's a bad idea, DON'T DO IT! I wish I had all those years ago.

Strange Days

2008-10-18T13:23:00.000-07:00

Yesterday and today are tough. I feel as if my world is falling down around me and I try to keep everything together, but failing at it. I'm filing for bankruptcy because I can't keep up with my bills. I feel angry and sad at myself because at the beginning of this year, I was going to be debt free. I guess it wasn't meant to be, like a whole lot of things in my life. So, the questions is, where do you go when your world is gone and there's nothing left but despair?

Sad Day

2008-10-17T04:21:00.000-07:00

Today is the nine year anniversary of my father's death. It was sudden; he died of a heart attack. Today is going to be difficult. :(

Should I or Shouldn't I?

2008-10-16T17:30:00.000-07:00

I've been plaque with a very difficult decision and I decided to do it because this have been hard and I tried doing it on my own, but couldn't do it. I'll let you know what happens. :)

The Miracle (And Madness) Of Swag A.K.A. My First Buy The Big O!

2008-10-15T15:28:00.000-07:00

Okay, I'm here, so it means that I've survived today! :D My first Buy The Big O! was fun; it was like an amusement park for businesses: it had booths, free samples, swag, prizes, seminars and information about the business. Also, like an amusement park, we forgot where we parked! :P Also, I had my job interview today at Gamers, so cross your fingers that I got the job. All in all, a good day. :D

Crazy Day Ahead!

2008-10-15T04:18:00.000-07:00

Today is going to be nuts! I have Buy The Big O! and my job interview today. If you don't hear from me, I've passed out! :P