Today, unfortunately, I entered the lower worlds of the Buddha:
Hell - Feeling helpless about my family situation.
Hungry - Feeling always hungry: for food, respect, love, financial security, etc.
Animality - Feeling posessive over my posessions.
Anger - Feeling that my family sees me as nothing more than a servant and/or ATM machine, feeling that they'll completely unable to do anything for themselves without me there to 'save them' and feeling tired of always being the 'family savior'; always saving my family but no one saving me.
I realized this as I was chanting Daimoku. I'm chanting for my family's happiness, but I haven't a clue where to start. What should I do? :(
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