Week 6 and Big News

Well, this week was a bit slow. I think because Bill is in North Dakota this week for a shoot. He may be back next week. But, great news, today I made my final payment to my lawyer and I'm going to get my bankurptcy processed. The important thing is to NEVER make the same mistake again. :)

Weeks 4 & 5

Last week, I went to my internship only on Monday because I was experiencing burnout. This week, I finished to the photos in LightRoom and helped set up a shoot in the studio. Today, our family friend, Toni, took me on her Bomb-Pop route in Elkhorn. I never been to Elkhorn before. All I knew on it was that Metro Community College was there and it's my former C.A. Instructor Mike's home. It's a very beautiful city with farmland. The only time I ever saw farmland was when I was going out of town. I learned alot while with Toni. The route was much like my first photo shoot; there's alot more work done behind the scenes.

The Mistakes List

This morning while chanting, I started to write down a list of mistakes I've made in the hopes that I finally learn from them and grow as a people. Anyone can make a list of their own if they want. Here's mine:

Mistake I've made and must NEVER repeat:
1. Getting credit.
2. Overspending.
3. Buying things that I won't use as much and selling them two weeks later.
4. Giving money, even though I need it.
5. Eating other people's food. (At home. :P)
6. Not knowing where to put stuiff and not asking.
7. Talking first, thinking later.
8. Not saving money.
9. Not listening.
10. Comparing myself to others.
11. Not following my instincts.
12. Perfectionism.
13. Warped ideas of what should be according to everyone else.
14. Being taken advantage of.
15. Not taking care of me.
16. Always caring what others think.
17. Always making assumptions.
18. Going to and relying on check cashing places.
19. Going to and relying on loans and credit cards.
20 Getting what I WANT instead of what I NEED.
21. Not being grateful for what I already got.
And Finally...
NOT LEARNING FROM MY MISTAKES!!!!

Well, that's my list. What do you think? :)

A Stranger in an Unfamilar World...

Sometimes, I feel as if I don't know know this world anymore. All my life, I always did the right thing, only to discover that it hadn't meant anything. And it's not just me. Everyday, I'm surrounded by stories of murder, rape, war, terrorism, racism, sexism, the economy, etc. To me, it feels as if I'm an alien in this weird world. Did the people in Nichiren Daishonin's time feel like this, that they're in a hell with no end? This can't be how the world really is, because, to me, it doesn't make sense.

Internship - Week 3

This was a tiring but big week for me. On Tuesday, I did some more photo cleanup in Lightroom and met Pat, the owner of Stonehouse Publishing. Today, I helped set up a photo shoot and believe me, photographers and BTS guys deserve more credit than their getting. Their so many things to do to make a shoot perfect. I didn't realize how much until now.

Internship - Week 2

This week, I learned about how to clean up photos with LightRoom and Photoshop. At first, I had a bit of trouble, but with a little help, I got the hang of it in no time. I think I'll still be doing more cleaning up. Afterwards, I may scan and clean more photos unless something changes. I'm learning so much that it feels like my brain's on fire. :D