How did I get here?

I keep thinking to myself, how did I come to this point: filing bankruptcy. Then, I think back to 2003 when I got my first Capital One Visa credit card. I didn't want to, but my mom thought that it would be a good idea. Instead, it became the catalyst for misery and heartbreak. And I keep thinking, if I didn't listen to my mom and get that card, everything would be extremely different. But, I blame myself because I didn't listen to my own instincts instead of listening to everyone else. Follow your instincts; if something's a bad idea, DON'T DO IT! I wish I had all those years ago.

Strange Days

Yesterday and today are tough. I feel as if my world is falling down around me and I try to keep everything together, but failing at it. I'm filing for bankruptcy because I can't keep up with my bills. I feel angry and sad at myself because at the beginning of this year, I was going to be debt free. I guess it wasn't meant to be, like a whole lot of things in my life. So, the questions is, where do you go when your world is gone and there's nothing left but despair?