What I don't like >:P

I don't like judgemental, criticial people who force everyone around them to change. For example, in Alabama, there's a "Fat Tax", simply put, you don't lose weight, you pay more taxes. I understand the need for it to combat the ever-growing obestiy problem in this country, but here are the problem I have with it:

1. Forced conformity.
2. If people are unable to lose weight, they will feel ostrictzied for being unable to comply with the new law.
3. The after affects when people lose weight. They'll view those who are overweight as subhuman, forgetting that they we're overweight themselves.

What Alabama needs to do is gather the citizens together and come up with alternative solutions that can help its people and not make overweight citizens feel like outcasts in their own communities.

Bad Day :(

Today was awful and I didn't plan on it being awful. It felt as if everyone's on my case; some for my benefit and others because they can't look past my mistakes. I feel that I can't make mistakes, that I have to be perfect. I always felt this way since I was little because I feared displeasing people. Well, I did everything that people ask and they're still displeased with me.

WoB - beyond facebook.

Hey, I'm okay now. I settled what I needed to do. I've been thinking, I would like to see the World of Blood games, what I used to play on Facebook, be made into video games. They're fun, addictive and have compelling story lines.

Afraid

I'm afraid to file for bankruptcy because it'll be another mistake that people will point out and it'll come back to haunt. All my life, I felt I had to be perfect because whenever I would make a mistake, people would make me feel ashamed by bringing up past mistakes or comparing me to others, making me feel inferior.

The Right Decision (?)

Am I making the right decision filing bankruptcy? I feel as if its another bad decision that'll return to haunt me someday. I feel like such a failure; I messed on day one when I agreed to get a credit card. I didn't want to because I knew that this would happen and I was right. I feel so stupid; as if I'm never smart enough to make decisions where it counts. I feel like I don't have one inkling of independent thought because if I did, everything would be different. :...(

How did I get here?

I keep thinking to myself, how did I come to this point: filing bankruptcy. Then, I think back to 2003 when I got my first Capital One Visa credit card. I didn't want to, but my mom thought that it would be a good idea. Instead, it became the catalyst for misery and heartbreak. And I keep thinking, if I didn't listen to my mom and get that card, everything would be extremely different. But, I blame myself because I didn't listen to my own instincts instead of listening to everyone else. Follow your instincts; if something's a bad idea, DON'T DO IT! I wish I had all those years ago.

Strange Days

Yesterday and today are tough. I feel as if my world is falling down around me and I try to keep everything together, but failing at it. I'm filing for bankruptcy because I can't keep up with my bills. I feel angry and sad at myself because at the beginning of this year, I was going to be debt free. I guess it wasn't meant to be, like a whole lot of things in my life. So, the questions is, where do you go when your world is gone and there's nothing left but despair?